pressure? depressed? or out of mind?

Previous week and this week I have many test....
The feeling of exam is not wit me as i rest so many month d
Now few subject tat are going hardcore..
Especially math, psy and chem makes me sick....
Sucks days during exam....
Sucks lecturer cramming all exam in a day
Under such condition , how do wilson can do well in all exam???
Rest in peace ba.. Wilson......
u gonna die under such pressure

I dunno why... even though u hav bf for few month d...
at 1st , i think
well is ok... u hav ur gud life...
while i still can go on wit my life happily mayb...
but then after so many month d...
i still cant let it down....
everytime i recall this thg....
unexplainable depression around the air i breath in
but now i am afraid to talk or c u d....
even bump in shopping mal, i will evade u
duno y i react tat way....
mayb i feel embarassed?
talk till this point...
i feel i abit out of mind d...
Hope time heals everythg
heals the sorrow, the feeling, the bad memories
May time bless me....

I do admit i hav many kind of personalities
i think i am abnormal mayb
Me...
with bkb fren,
with tkd fren,
with college fren,
with buddy,
with family
when i am alone.
Different group of fren makes me react different ways....
Oh my god...
which personality suit me more to face every1?
i really nid to synchronize all of them
and make me thinks tat myself is normal....

mayb i am witing some rubbish
rubbish tat no people are concern with
but tat how i feel after some incident...
i hate to be wandering alone wit no direction
it makes me simply think smthg tat does not exist
or even smthg tat i regret for doing / nt doing in last time
how to express my feeling?
pretend happy?
pretend dun care?
pretend to b lame and let ppl happy?
Tired....
time to stop all the nonsense and get bak my trueself...
i promised
i will chg for every1 of u all...
juz give me time to heal "wound"
I wil stay strong...
I will b cheerful to every1
juz nid time...

Hope every 1 around me happy always and not like me....